][[``__.+.An UrBaN FaIrY's DiArY.+._

Yup, I know my life has been quite hectic the past month...lotsa stuff to do...but guess what I'm still happy. Even my mom's persistent nagging to keep my room always clean can't get me down. Somehow I can still find a way to keep a smile on my face. My baby's growing up pretty well, he likes to eat a lot now, especially fruits. There's this thing that helps me endure everything, it hinders me from giving up...and I know it's love. Love inspires me to go on despite all the bad circumstances. Love for myself and love for my family is what keeps me going on. Whenever I think of it, my heart just starts beating real fast and butterflies seem to fill my stomach. Hahaha, I know I'm not making any sense about this love thing...but it's how I feel. I know I need to be strong for my baby, for my whole family for that matter. I need to get on with life, pick up where I left off before and try to start anew. Hopefully by Dec or Jan I could get a job, off into the real world. I reckon it's about time that I flew with my own wings and not depend on my parents. I wanna earn my own cash, buy stuff for my hubby and my baby. I want to feel the real meaning of independence, I do admit I'm scared, but hey I know sooner or later I have to face it. I have lost a lot of self confidence and now I'm willing to get that back. I want to be myself again, the Vanessa that just can't seem to stop doing everything and anything. The Vanessa who always had something to say. I miss the old days wherein I was always in charge, always in the front line ready for battle. I know that my childhood dreams have already been shattered but I believe that God has got better plans for me. I don't regret everything that has happened in my life, I'm actually happy that it happened because it has taught me a lot. It taught me to be stronger and to not depend on any body else to obtain happiness.

My baby boy never fails to make me smile. My hubby...hahahah...no comment! Tongue Out 9

He's helping me out with the chores at home...thank you baby, I love you!

mwah! I couldn't ask for more!! I'm so lucky to be with you...and Poi...

My RO life is the same, ahahaha, I'm on vend mode right now. Trying to start a business.

My 2 best friends, are the same as ever, chaotic and LOUD!! Whenever the three of us get together, it surely will be a riot!! Gathering

We're still planning a date for our dinner, maybe sometime this month but it still depends on their schedule.

Weeeee... I just wanted to share how I feel. I just feel so complete...I'm just plain happy! w00t

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